Having my first baby changed my life. Although I did everything out of order, God knew exactly what I needed to slow me down. I was on a fast path to self-destruction. Becoming a mom, made me look at life differently. I could no longer be selfish. All my decisions would now affect my baby. I never knew love like I experienced from my daughter. Although I didn’t have a relationship with Jesus yet, I got married to her father and got pregnant right away.
Ephesians 2:3-5 (NKJV)
3 among whom also we all once conducted ourselves in the lusts of our flesh, fulfilling the desires of the flesh and of the mind, and were by nature children of wrath, just as the others.
4 But God, who is rich in mercy, because of His great love with which He loved us, 5 even when we were dead in trespasses, made us alive together with Christ (by grace you have been saved),
I couldn’t imagine having a second child. Was I going to have enough love for both of them? Was my first born going to feel like she was being replaced? My marriage was already falling apart. Was my next daughter going to know her father?
I wasn’t saved yet, but God’s grace is sufficient. His hand was on me before I even realized it. My heart filled with love for my second daughter. I was amazed at how love doesn’t run out. My first baby didn’t lack any love. I loved them both uniquely but equally. They were so very different.
Jeremiah 31:3
The Lord has appeared of old to me, saying: “Yes, I have loved you with an everlasting love; Therefore with lovingkindness I have drawn you.
Going through my separation and divorce was a humbling, hurtful experience. It brought me to a place of desperation. I had lost everything, but I couldn’t quit. My babies needed me! The road to salvation was before me. Why did I wait so long? I thought I knew love, but I never knew a love like this!
Romans 5:5-6(NKJV)
5 Now hope does not disappoint, because the love of God has been poured out in our hearts by the Holy Spirit who was given to us.6 For when we were still without strength, in due time Christ died for the ungodly.
Not only did God pour His overwhelming love on me, He forgave me, transformed me, restored me, made me whole, and new! He did all of that while also enlarging my capacity to love, forgive, and have compassion for others. Although I desired to be married, if I never did again, Jesus was enough. I was so in love with Him and poured myself into His Word.
Ephesians 3:17-19 (NKJV)
17 that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith; that you, being rooted and grounded in love, 18 may be able to comprehend with all the saints what is the width and length and depth and height— 19 to know the love of Christ which passes knowledge; that you may be filled with all the fullness of God.
Fast forward to the present, now married to my man of God for almost six years and have three more children, I still find myself full of love. Now forty-one and pregnant with my sixth child, I am still in awe of God’s never ending love. I love my first born today like the day she was born and more. I love the baby in my womb like “he” is already here and it doesn’t take away my love for anybody else. It never runs out! It doesn’t cost anything and it’s the answer to everything. God is love!
1 John 4:7-8 (NKJV)
Knowing God Through Love
7 Beloved, let us love one another, for love is of God; and everyone who loves is born of God and knows God. 8 He who does not love does not know God, for God is love.
Father, we thank You that your love never runs out. Just as you have given us enough love for all of our children, You have more than enough love for all of Yours. Forgive us for forgetting that Your love covers a multitude of sin (1 Peter 4:8). Forgive us for hiding in our sin instead of letting Your love deliver us. Show us how to receive the fullness of Your love and enlarge our capacity to love others. We want to know You as Father who’s love never gives up or runs out. In Jesus’ name we pray. Amen!
2 Corinthians 13:11
[ Greetings and Benediction ] Finally, brethren, farewell. Become complete. Be of good comfort, be of one mind, live in peace; and the God of love and peace will be with you.
Ephesians 2:3-5 (NKJV)
3 among whom also we all once conducted ourselves in the lusts of our flesh, fulfilling the desires of the flesh and of the mind, and were by nature children of wrath, just as the others.
4 But God, who is rich in mercy, because of His great love with which He loved us, 5 even when we were dead in trespasses, made us alive together with Christ (by grace you have been saved),
I couldn’t imagine having a second child. Was I going to have enough love for both of them? Was my first born going to feel like she was being replaced? My marriage was already falling apart. Was my next daughter going to know her father?
I wasn’t saved yet, but God’s grace is sufficient. His hand was on me before I even realized it. My heart filled with love for my second daughter. I was amazed at how love doesn’t run out. My first baby didn’t lack any love. I loved them both uniquely but equally. They were so very different.
Jeremiah 31:3
The Lord has appeared of old to me, saying: “Yes, I have loved you with an everlasting love; Therefore with lovingkindness I have drawn you.
Going through my separation and divorce was a humbling, hurtful experience. It brought me to a place of desperation. I had lost everything, but I couldn’t quit. My babies needed me! The road to salvation was before me. Why did I wait so long? I thought I knew love, but I never knew a love like this!
Romans 5:5-6(NKJV)
5 Now hope does not disappoint, because the love of God has been poured out in our hearts by the Holy Spirit who was given to us.6 For when we were still without strength, in due time Christ died for the ungodly.
Not only did God pour His overwhelming love on me, He forgave me, transformed me, restored me, made me whole, and new! He did all of that while also enlarging my capacity to love, forgive, and have compassion for others. Although I desired to be married, if I never did again, Jesus was enough. I was so in love with Him and poured myself into His Word.
Ephesians 3:17-19 (NKJV)
17 that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith; that you, being rooted and grounded in love, 18 may be able to comprehend with all the saints what is the width and length and depth and height— 19 to know the love of Christ which passes knowledge; that you may be filled with all the fullness of God.
Fast forward to the present, now married to my man of God for almost six years and have three more children, I still find myself full of love. Now forty-one and pregnant with my sixth child, I am still in awe of God’s never ending love. I love my first born today like the day she was born and more. I love the baby in my womb like “he” is already here and it doesn’t take away my love for anybody else. It never runs out! It doesn’t cost anything and it’s the answer to everything. God is love!
1 John 4:7-8 (NKJV)
Knowing God Through Love
7 Beloved, let us love one another, for love is of God; and everyone who loves is born of God and knows God. 8 He who does not love does not know God, for God is love.
Father, we thank You that your love never runs out. Just as you have given us enough love for all of our children, You have more than enough love for all of Yours. Forgive us for forgetting that Your love covers a multitude of sin (1 Peter 4:8). Forgive us for hiding in our sin instead of letting Your love deliver us. Show us how to receive the fullness of Your love and enlarge our capacity to love others. We want to know You as Father who’s love never gives up or runs out. In Jesus’ name we pray. Amen!
2 Corinthians 13:11
[ Greetings and Benediction ] Finally, brethren, farewell. Become complete. Be of good comfort, be of one mind, live in peace; and the God of love and peace will be with you.
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